5 days 5 days 5 days 5 days 5 days 5 days 5 days 5 days!!!!!!
YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY
OH no, I still haven’t gotten him an anniversary present
uh oh. I just cant think of anything to get him. uh oh,
Time is running out… odd feeling thinking that I need MORE time now.
But YAY
5 days 5 days 5 days 5 DAYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
YAYYYYYYY
my son is a nut. I wish that I could blame his nuttiness on his Daddy. But he is not around, so today I faced the fact… I have made him this way. I’m not always an example of calm or patience to him.
When he throws his little 10 month old body down on the floor arching his back and shrieking, sometimes I get down on the floor next to him and throw a tantrum of my own. Laughing at how this encourages him to scream, but the screaming changes from angry screaming, to this mock shy smiling scream.
Not everyone in my life has heard my “true laugh”. Ya know, there is a laugh that I can share with any old body when something is slightly humorous…. but I do have another laugh… my TRUE laugh, that escapes from my soul when I am OVERWHELMED with JOY. Everyone makes fun of it. Sean calls it my spongebob laugh, or my machine gun laugh. But its just my laugh . Today in the car on the way over to see fireworks Jacob was in such a good mood. He was gurgling and laughing at the noise it made. He was being so goofy in the backseat that I started laughing at him. His sweet baby laugh suddenly turned to some strange rhythmic pattern of squeaky blurts of happiness… I was so touched and happied by him itt brought out my “true laugh”. Suddenly he laughed again…….. what? That noise! It was my laugh! The more I laughed the more he laughed, and the more I laughed, it continued until I heard him gasping for air and thought I better stop laughing before he laughed himself to death. All I could think is Sean better get home quick so this boy can hear a “normal” laugh…before I ruin him. Now I know what people hear when i get too happy for my own good… strange to be on the other side of that laugh.
strange indeed.
what can I say… Im in love.
Psalm 46
“Step out of the Traffic! Take a long, loving look at me, your High God, above politics, above everything.”
I think it is so necessary for me in my walk with God to do this. To step out of the traffic of my life from time to time (more often than I do now) and LOOOOOOK at god. Look at him. look at him lovingly. take a long look at him. not a glance, but a long stare. A long seeking look. Looking until I see what I need, looking until i learn something new. Looking until I see more of his face. looking until I know him better. Looking until I am content. Looking until I hear his voice. Looking until I have my answers. Looking until I run out of quesitons, looking in my silence. looking and crying, looking and waiting, looking impatiently seeking. Looking and being still. sitting. sitting alone, sitting quietly. Not one otehr thing in this world with me. Blank apart from God. Blank with God . Letting him write on my blank self. Starting a new clean slate. Looking at him causes me to be new.
below is a list of things to do when my hubby comes home from his 5 month deployment in 9 days:
1. have sex. yes it has been 5 months
2. celebrate our late 2 yr anniversary. I made reservations tonight at The Melting Pot. Only place I would drop $100 and not feel guilty about it. It is that good.
3. go car shopping. Dont get me wrong, good ol Honda Accord has been forever faithful, but sharing one car has been hard for us. It either leaves me stuck at home, or having to drive Sean into work at 5:30 am. Dragging Jake out of bed is just evil. And yes, they frown on you leaving ur babies home alone even when they are sleeping. My top choices right now are the Honda CR-V and the Toyota Rav4.
4. 10,000 BC outdoor movie date. The base has outdoor movies every friday night… never been to one yet , but plan on seeing this movie with the family.
5. Recieve my exotic presents. Sean likes to dangle these surprise presents over my head the whole time he is away with little comments like “I bought you something interesting today in Sicily, you are going to love it! It is so cool!” I wonder what they are! yay!
6. Oh wait, have more sex. 5 months worth here to make up for so yes, I do need to say it twice.
7. Get Jacobs hair cut. I know I will cry that day, but it is starting to be necessary. He is getting these long pieces behind his ears.
8. Family trip to the Aquarium. Though I find all underwater creatures REPULSIVE Jacob is really into them. He could point at the fish all day in the church aquarium. I’ve never been to an Aquarium in JAX but I figure every city has to have one. I know Sean will like showing Jake the sharks and stuff.
9. Smile and be thankful to have my man back in mine and my sons life again.
I feel like this little boy.
instead of coercing my parents to make a little brother for me, I went and birthed my own little soccer buddy. I can’t wait til Jacob is old enough to go kick the ball around. I hope by then I will still be in good enough shape to play.
Recently I have been really missing soccer. I used to love it SOO much. It is my only true hobby, but its defintely more than a hobby for me. i love it. I mean i really love it.
So prepare to be shocked by my new GOAL! I am going to start searching around for some soccer leagues. The thing is I dont exactly love playing with women. In HS I played on the varsity boys team, and also on a travel girls team. Definitely liked the boys better, but that was teenage girls so maybe it would be different now. dont know..
So hopefully I can find a co ed league or something like that.
My momma got me this book for my birthday. Im only through the first few chapters, but so far its keeping my interest. Which I admit is sometimes hard. It’s about the end times on earth.
I am also reading Cindy Beall’s ‘My Story’ on her blog. It is very real and encouraging to me. I am already over 1/2 way through!
Reading hasn’t really been a choice part of my life since College. But I think I enjoy it more now that I am choosing to do it, rather than being forced. I also feel like my brain needs some challenging seeing as most of my time is spent dumming myself down to the level of a 9 month old.
Goo Goo and Ga Ga is fun, but 4 syllable words are good for my soul! 
I had a good time this week with my mom and bro! We spent some time at the zoo the beach and the pool. It was just nice having the fam around!
now that they are gone… the real countdown to Seans homecoming begins! While my mom was here we went out shopping for a homecoming dress for me! I got the BEST dress, and shoes and a necklace, so now I am prepared for the big day! Im still searching for a baby sailor uniform. It seems like the classic baby boy outfit, but I cannot find one anywhere! I am about to give up and just get him this dress shirt I saw at pottery barn baby. It was a short sleeve white collared shirt with blue sailboats on it. Which would be cute, but I really had my heart set on the full fledged sailor getup.
well Jake is standing by my side reaching up and tryign to hit the keys right now. Luckily he is just short of the keyboard, but now he is using a toy to give him the few extra inches he needed…DARN! which means i gotta go!
My mom and little bro Kevin have been on their way to see me now since 5:30 this afternoon. They are currently stuck at Philadelphia airport, probably half losing their minds, waiting to board their plane. Last time I checked their flight was delayed and scheduled to leave at 10 :55. Their departure time has been progressively getting later and later as the day has worn on.
HOPEFULLY I will be driving to the airport at 1 am to go pick them up. yuck i hope i dont fall asleep at the wheel!
I am excited to see them! :) My little bro hasnt even seen my place yet.
I am secretly hoping that Jacob will take his first steps while they are here. He has been SO CLOSE lately you guys ! He spends most of his day standing now, instead of crawling, he really wants to do it , and he is getting the balance down, he just needs the courage!
I know what I need? Help me out! Some ideas for things to do while the fam is visiting- Any places around that I can take them? I need some activities! Gotta keep them northerners busy so they dont notice we are in the south!
This human video is AMAZING and makes me CRY everytime I see it. It speaks to my heart I love it. I love JESUS
Though, the best I have ever seen it done was in person at Crossing Community Church. Props to CCC
(I recieved this in a junk email- but it actually interested me. I did not know before which Gas Stations purchase American Oil or which purchase Middle Eastern Oil. It is good to know.)
WHERE TO BUY AMERICAN GASOLINE. THIS IS VERY IMPORTANT TO KNOW. READ ON.
Gas rationing in the 70’s worked even though we grumbled about it. It might
even have been good for us!
Are you aware that the Saudis are boycotting American products?
Shouldn’t we return the favor? Can’t we take control of our own destiny and
let these giant o il importers know who REALLY generates their profits,
their livings? How about leaving American Dollars in America and reduce the
import/export deficit?
An appealing remedy might be to boycott their GAS. Every time you fill up
your car you can avoid putting more money into the coffers of Saudi Arabia .
Just purchase gas from companies that don’t import their oil from the
Saudis.
Nothing is more frustrating than the feeling that every time I fill up my
tank, I’m sending my money to people who I get the impression want me, my
family and my friends dead. Don’t you think it might be of interest to know
which oil companies import Middle Eastern oil and which do not?
These companies import Middle Eastern oil:
Shell…………………………….. 205,742,000 barrels
Chevron/Texaco……………… 144,332,000 barrels
Exxon /Mobil………………….. 130,082,000 barrels
Marathon/Speedway………… 117,740,000 barrels
Amoco………………………….. 62,231,000 barrels
And CITGO oil is imported from Venezuela by Dictator Hugo Chavez who hates
America and openly avows our economic destruction! (We pay Chavez’s regime
nearly $10 Billion per year in oil revenues!)
The U.S. currently imports 5,517,000 barrels of crude oil per day from OPEC.
If you do the math at $95 per barrel, that’s over $524 million PER DAY ($191
BILLION per year!) handed over to OPEC, many of whose members are our
confirmed enemies!!!!!
Here are some large companies that do not import Middle Eastern oil:
Sunoco………………….. 0 barrels
Conoco…………………… 0 barrels
Sinclair…………………… 0 barrels
BP / Phillips……………. 0 barrels
Hess. ………………….. 0 barrels
ARC0………………….. 0 barrels
Maverick…………………. 0 barrels
Flying J. ……………….. 0 barrels
Valero…………………….. 0 barrels
Interesting to me!
