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Tim and Donna Deegan- please stop BAKING ur faces and bleaching ur hair and causing me to feel like my color on my tv is off when really you just both need a GENEROUS helping of sunscreen.

didn’t get the house yet again.

starting the process of looking again.  Now interest rates are raising and it stanks.

I’m still in the grieving process, so nothing looks good when I am comparing to my dream house.  Sean said today I need to stop comparing to the past house.  And I told him that’s like if he died, and I went out looking for a new man 6 days later and didn’t even have him on my mind.  He thinks thats a ridiculous comparison.   I think he just doesn’t understand my deepness.

…You wake up from a dream about eating Fried Rice with veggies, cherry tomatoes, and microwaved peanut MandMs, all mixed together.   (and it still sounds really good)

My baby boy is becoming the accomplished poo and pee-er on the potty!  This is awesome, and yet crazy! 
I am so proud of him, and will be extremely happy to not have 2 babies in diapers by the time November rolls around,  but I also cannot grasp my mom brain about the fact that my little munchkin is growing up!

Yesterday I had a doc appointment and Sean and I got to hear babys heartbeat! 
When the nurse put the thingy on my belly we heard the heartbeat and right away she exclaimed “oh that’s a girl!!!”  I said well thats good news.. but why?  She said the boys always seem hard to find and she can always find the girls right away!    It’s her own little pregnancy myth but I am clinging to it!

They had multiple offers and came back asking for everyones highest and best.  That is a stressful situation because you don’t know the other peoples offers, and you dont want to be overbidding yourself and wasting your own money, but you also don’t want to lose it by bidding just like 500 too little.
AHHH  they also put a crazy time crunch on us today!  I got a call around 2 and they were putting the deadline for the offers to be in at 5!  We had to rush over to our realtors office and go crazy trying to get the new pre approval letter through and fill out paperwork.  So Jacob got no nap today and I am beattttttt
They said we should know within 2 days!  So thats a plus. Hopefully not a long wait! 
Wait and seeeeeee! : )

I found my dream house.  It’s gorgeous.  Everything I would want and hope for in a house.  And I am thrilled that we got an offer in within the first 5 days it was on the market.  I am really getting used to not having offers go through, but am TRYING to be positive on this because ….. actually my heart may just BREAK if we dont get this house.  This is my dream house.  And it exists, and it’s in our price range… even lower than our price range, and i am ecstatic thinking about living there.
SO today we drove by after making our offer to just look at it, and there were PEOPLE in the house looking at it……..I didnt like that one bit.  I told Sean to go get naked and introduce himself as the wacky nudist overly friendly neighbor, but he wouldnt do it.  (Clearly he doesnt love the house as much as me). 
So , lord willing, I may be living in my dream house!  oooooooo yaaaaa i would love it.

Last night at around 4 am I woke up to a powerful thumping on my stomach.  I was dazed and confused and half asleep and grabbed my stomach half expecting to find a squirrel had somehow crawled in between the sheets and was attacking me.
A few seconds later, as my brain started to function, I realized that pesky squirrel was actual my baby!   For a half hour I laid there with my hands on my stomach and every few minutes I could feel him/her kicking and punching all around!   I don’t remember when I started feeling the movements when I was pregnant with Jacob, but for some reason this time around it really touched me.
I am officially in love with this baby now!  Up until this point I guess I have been pretty lax about this pregnancy, maybe kind of because I feel like I’m just going down the same road again as I did with Jacob.  Sort of a “been there, done that” type attitude.   I was excited for the baby to come, dont get me wrong, but wasn’t extremely thrilled about the pregnancy/ birth process.
I know that all the love I have for Jacob is somehow going to be multiplied and I’ll be able to love this little girl/boy just as much.  As she/he was moving all around like crazy I was picturing its tiny little hands and feet and knowing that pretty soon I will get to see them , and watch them grow like I’ve watched Jacobs grow, and man I was feeling soo emotional! 
Something else changed in my heart while blueberry and I were poking at eachother last night… and it is a big one.  I am absolutely content with the sex of my baby!   ! ! !   !  !  I know!  You are shocked.  I have been saying how much I desperately want a girl , and how if it was a boy I might even be a little disappointed.  Well, shoot… I’ve gone and changed my mind.  The baby already is what it is, and I just love it.

Again, they accepted someone elses offer!  Im starting to get frustrated!  We have been looking since February and now we are really in crunch time.  We need to be out of here by August and that is REALLY not that far away at all.  Looking at a home today by the Town Center and University of North Florida.   Different situation than the others we have looked at because the bank is taking bids instead of stating an asking price…  The realtor told me he assumes it will sell around 160k tho which is in our price range so.. we will see how this one goes.  Its 4 beds which is what I am really holding out for at this point.  Plus I wouldnt mind at all being close to the Town Center and Brittany and Erica ya heee!

  Ill tell ya later how it goes.