Kristajean’s Weblog

Last night at around 4 am I woke up to a powerful thumping on my stomach.  I was dazed and confused and half asleep and grabbed my stomach half expecting to find a squirrel had somehow crawled in between the sheets and was attacking me.
A few seconds later, as my brain started to function, I realized that pesky squirrel was actual my baby!   For a half hour I laid there with my hands on my stomach and every few minutes I could feel him/her kicking and punching all around!   I don’t remember when I started feeling the movements when I was pregnant with Jacob, but for some reason this time around it really touched me.
I am officially in love with this baby now!  Up until this point I guess I have been pretty lax about this pregnancy, maybe kind of because I feel like I’m just going down the same road again as I did with Jacob.  Sort of a “been there, done that” type attitude.   I was excited for the baby to come, dont get me wrong, but wasn’t extremely thrilled about the pregnancy/ birth process.
I know that all the love I have for Jacob is somehow going to be multiplied and I’ll be able to love this little girl/boy just as much.  As she/he was moving all around like crazy I was picturing its tiny little hands and feet and knowing that pretty soon I will get to see them , and watch them grow like I’ve watched Jacobs grow, and man I was feeling soo emotional! 
Something else changed in my heart while blueberry and I were poking at eachother last night… and it is a big one.  I am absolutely content with the sex of my baby!   ! ! !   !  !  I know!  You are shocked.  I have been saying how much I desperately want a girl , and how if it was a boy I might even be a little disappointed.  Well, shoot… I’ve gone and changed my mind.  The baby already is what it is, and I just love it.